I always considered myself as someone who has not experienced trauma. Early this year I took a psychological evaluation test about trauma and scored a 11. It means that I experienced few to no symptoms of active trauma. Talking with my therapist today, I realized that I had experienced a fair share of trauma. My body remembers even though my mind doesn’t want to acknowledge it. I think the very first trauma I experienced was when I first had a severe depressive episode. I had limited to no knowledge of depression, however I experienced it so vividly. I remember sitting on the floor of my dorm’s hallway and wishing it would swallow me whole. Having my body respond to situations I did not know. Like how one day I couldn’t eat because I was so scared and my hands were trembling so I couldn’t hold a fork. For six months I experienced these symptoms, forgot what it means to be happy, or how it feels like. The second time I experienced trauma it wasn’t as intense. I wasn’t sad. I was h...