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Little me

Little me was a sweet child
She thought the world was a good place
She thought a smile and a helping hand were common place
But the world was not a good place
And smiles turned into frowns

Little me played by the rules
She asked for permission for anything
She respected everyone and anyone
But the world never played fair
And she had to learn new tricks

Little me loved to talk to people
She told them her joys and sorrows
She told them her dreams and aspirations
But the people didn't care about what she said
And she turned into a quiet girl

Little me loved to sing
She learned lyrics of her favorite songs by heart
She sang songs to whoever was around
But nobody cared about her voice
And she decided to stop singing

Little me was a voracious eater
She ate anything served on a plate
But the food got her fat
And fat was not beautiful apparently

Little me was a chubby child
She received multiple compliments
She was told she would grow up to be like her mother
But pop culture said fat was ugly
And she starved herself to skinny

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